potent-infinity

It all started as I looked for a moment of quiet, just me and a cigar on my porch late one rainy night....

Who Am I?

I am a father
I am a christ follower
I am an apostle
I am a leader
I am a husband

To be true to myself and be the best 'me' - My goal is to be the best husband, father, christian, leader, apostle I can be.

My biggest roadblock or distraction could be a desire for material possessions... ...which is in complete contrast with who I am or who I want to be (as detailed above).

Perhaps some of what I considered above are really my core competancies:
Leadership Skills
Apostolic Annointing

Then I use these talents to achieve my goals of being a great father and husband and a dedicated christ follower.

Now if so much of my current struggle is my business verses my current job verses potential future jobs this is completely external to my family or christian life and yet is so personally all-consuming.

If my real identity and life purpose is not at all or not directly related to my current personal turmoil then I am in fact in crisis. Based on the fact my focus is completely redirected away from what it is to 'me'.

A person in crisis, not being true to himself is actually not going to achieve full potential in any area. For the conflict is within and any battle external to the root issue is just a cosmetic attempt to coverup or distract.

The answer then is not to list the top ten issues or outstanding tasks but it is to create a new list made by 'me' in my true self.

A list not of things un-done but of things yet to be done.

It is with this positive drive that one's true potential can be tapped and is the required catalyst to take 'me' from crisis to completion.

It almost seems like it may have more general applicability...

Take a situation that seems negative, impossible, has issues or problems. Create true identity and vision. Plan action based on the future potential and vision not bound by the conflict of the past.

Ah those sweet moments of serendipity....

Joe and I were chatting at lunch, I was sharing my uncertainty to my new responsibilities at work our conversation and my thinking started to turn the corner and I remember saying "I feel I have the tools now, to lead even a challenging group through a tough situation. To do so now I just need to use them (the tools - the skills I have practiced and learnt about)."

As Joe responded I remember him starting to say (paraphrasing) that I do have what I need and got mid sentence when I almost feel off my chair.

He said, "I feel you are like a 6 cylinder engine only operating on 2 cylinders". Although his message was longer it was this comment that spoke straight to me from God to say the work He told me about, the prophecy I received is over 10 years ago is linked to this moment in time. It was a reminder that this is his plan for me. I am in his plan for me and gave me the confidence only such a life marker can give. Nothing speaks louder that God popping out to say Fear Not.

So I to aid in my explanation I have attached the audio from the prophecy I refer to. It was November of 1995 I was graduating from my Christian High School. For the graduating class all students are offered words of prophecy. This is the first of 4 which I will attach.

I call this prophecy Crusin In 1st
nov_1995_coc_1_crusin_in_1st.mp3

For completeness and posterity I have attached all prophecies I have recorded on tape:

I call this prophecy I Know You
nov_1995_coc_2_i_know_you.mp3

I call this prophecy Apostolic Anointing
nov_1995_coc_3_apostolic.mp3

I call this prophecy Anointed For Business
nov_1995_coc_3_board_room.mp3


The following two prophecies were in November of 2005:

I call this prophecy In Honor of the Least
nov_2005_crc_history.mp3

I call this prophecy My Apostolic Prophetic Marriage Team
nov_2005_crc_apostolic_prophectic_partners.mp3

When I was 17 I can remember a friend and I discussing a decision making method based on the consideration of what the "25 year old Andrew" would appreciate most. To do this simply invent another character in your mind and sit down to have a little discussion over whatever it is you are about to do.

Quite often I can remember deciding not to 'cross that line' because I didn't want to let the 25 year old Andrew down. For me this was a powerful understanding ~ some whacky form of future self respect.

I was considering today that this is something I no longer do. I just celebrated my 28th birthday, I think I am still in denail and consider myself 22 and as such never felt the need to update my future self from 25 year old Andrew.

Then I started to think what would it look like if I considered my wife of 2007. What could I do to make her proud of the 28 year old Andrew. What would it look like to consider the Purcell family of 2010. To spend just a little time this day to do something the Purcell's of 2010 would look back on and say "Thanks Dad".

What about my Church or my community, if I start to consider (to have vision for) the future and do one action today to make that one step closer to a reality. This broader scale gets harder to write about....

So I'll start with Andrew:
Today I could go for a run.
Already the Andrew of tomorrow would appreciate that and feel healthy and energized.
Today I could do ALL my outstanding chores and procrastinated tasks.
Imagine how thankful the Andrew of tomorrow would be.

Then today I could do some dishes or help with some laundry, hmm now I know this investment repeated would reap life happiness beyond my imagination - I can not think of a greater blessing than a happy family that this would help bring.

I have started to realise that selfishness so often is acts which care only for you NOW. Acts in consideration of the future you are rarely as selfish.

So today I chose to consider the me of tomorrow, my family of tomorrow, my community of tomorrow… let the impact be potent and infinite.