potent-infinity

Ok ok. to be honest I have already written this first sentence 4 times. Each time deleting it as it just wasn't quite perfect. So to ensure I at least get through one post on this weblog, I will continue and resist the temptation to start all over with some other half baked attempt to impress you with my wit and style and humor and good looks....

I did think of journaling on why journaling wasn't for me but I guess it is a fairly rediculus use of my time so I'll just skip ahead and pretend I have been doing it for years and this is just another blog listing thoughts of the days just pasted.

Recently I have had an exciting sense, one I have felt before and recognize, a new sense of calling. I have long believed that God has a very special blessing on my life. A feeling of knowing there is a plan and always knowing the next step a little earlier in my spirit than I realize in my physical reality. It is a feeling that gives great reassurance. As well as this, I feel God show up each and every time to take me and my family to greater and greater places. I have always been so blessed in business, work environments in most life situations I feel competent in a way I don't feel comes from me as much as God. Knowing these things along with one key truth - I aint seen nothing yet. The journey God has for me, the job, the goal, the mission is so much greater than I have ever considered, the potential is infinite.

Joe (Dam Youth Drop In) asked a pointed question one night "Why Are You Here?" I think it was my first night meeting Joe as volunteer. One part of me wanted to say fine and just walk off, thinking he didn't want me there. The other part of me had only one answer "This is where God wants me right now". "Ask me again in 5 years and I can tell you why I was there", was my thinking.

My journey with God has been like this a lot. I quite often don't know the bigger picture, nor need a reason, just need to be sure that this next step, this next day is in obedience to my best ability to what God wants from me. It has been some time of small steps and little booming direction, but I am feeling the subtle growth of the still small voice and it is truly exciting.