potent-infinity

Serendipity is finding something unexpected and useful while searching for something else entirely.

Actually this is the title of the blog that never was. I think it would have been an amazing blog. It is sad to have to say Good bye and move on. However this shall be the words of reminder to seize the day; for had I seized the day I would have captured what would have been quite a meaningful thought.

Today however is a day of examination. A day for my performance review at work. Tough day for one who is driven by his perceptions of how others value him. Even though everything says I have done good and faithful work the underlying expectation is that I will be blind sided by some failure which leaves me feeling like a boy outside the principals office waiting for his punishment.

This helps to highlight my need for others approval, even perhaps with more emotional impact than a fear of letting God down. My spirit health and self analysis is perhaps something I have been able to control or limit. If it gets in the way of 'the more important things in life'.

I think balance would be a keen understanding of my value in the world based on God's view, love and approval rather than people's view, love and approval. However the other feeling I have is my God conscience is out of whack. The priority of my God time and spiritual health needs to be elevated above all else.

So for the next while let that be my journey be - one of self discover of 'me' and 'me and God'. Let it be the brainstorming session which brings change to the priorities of my day, each and every day.

I think my Serendipity post will come - but I am not sure I have found the something unexpected yet. Perhaps for now it shall remain an incentive as I walk this journey.