potent-infinity

When I was 17 I can remember a friend and I discussing a decision making method based on the consideration of what the "25 year old Andrew" would appreciate most. To do this simply invent another character in your mind and sit down to have a little discussion over whatever it is you are about to do.

Quite often I can remember deciding not to 'cross that line' because I didn't want to let the 25 year old Andrew down. For me this was a powerful understanding ~ some whacky form of future self respect.

I was considering today that this is something I no longer do. I just celebrated my 28th birthday, I think I am still in denail and consider myself 22 and as such never felt the need to update my future self from 25 year old Andrew.

Then I started to think what would it look like if I considered my wife of 2007. What could I do to make her proud of the 28 year old Andrew. What would it look like to consider the Purcell family of 2010. To spend just a little time this day to do something the Purcell's of 2010 would look back on and say "Thanks Dad".

What about my Church or my community, if I start to consider (to have vision for) the future and do one action today to make that one step closer to a reality. This broader scale gets harder to write about....

So I'll start with Andrew:
Today I could go for a run.
Already the Andrew of tomorrow would appreciate that and feel healthy and energized.
Today I could do ALL my outstanding chores and procrastinated tasks.
Imagine how thankful the Andrew of tomorrow would be.

Then today I could do some dishes or help with some laundry, hmm now I know this investment repeated would reap life happiness beyond my imagination - I can not think of a greater blessing than a happy family that this would help bring.

I have started to realise that selfishness so often is acts which care only for you NOW. Acts in consideration of the future you are rarely as selfish.

So today I chose to consider the me of tomorrow, my family of tomorrow, my community of tomorrow… let the impact be potent and infinite.

Serendipity is finding something unexpected and useful while searching for something else entirely.

Actually this is the title of the blog that never was. I think it would have been an amazing blog. It is sad to have to say Good bye and move on. However this shall be the words of reminder to seize the day; for had I seized the day I would have captured what would have been quite a meaningful thought.

Today however is a day of examination. A day for my performance review at work. Tough day for one who is driven by his perceptions of how others value him. Even though everything says I have done good and faithful work the underlying expectation is that I will be blind sided by some failure which leaves me feeling like a boy outside the principals office waiting for his punishment.

This helps to highlight my need for others approval, even perhaps with more emotional impact than a fear of letting God down. My spirit health and self analysis is perhaps something I have been able to control or limit. If it gets in the way of 'the more important things in life'.

I think balance would be a keen understanding of my value in the world based on God's view, love and approval rather than people's view, love and approval. However the other feeling I have is my God conscience is out of whack. The priority of my God time and spiritual health needs to be elevated above all else.

So for the next while let that be my journey be - one of self discover of 'me' and 'me and God'. Let it be the brainstorming session which brings change to the priorities of my day, each and every day.

I think my Serendipity post will come - but I am not sure I have found the something unexpected yet. Perhaps for now it shall remain an incentive as I walk this journey.