potent-infinity

Things Un-Done

2006-08-20T04:48:10+02:00

It all started as I looked for a moment of quiet, just me and a cigar on my porch late one rainy night....

Who Am I?

I am a father
I am a christ follower
I am an apostle
I am a leader
I am a husband

To be true to myself and be the best 'me' - My goal is to be the best husband, father, christian, leader, apostle I can be.

My biggest roadblock or distraction could be a desire for material possessions... ...which is in complete contrast with who I am or who I want to be (as detailed above).

Perhaps some of what I considered above are really my core competancies:
Leadership Skills
Apostolic Annointing

Then I use these talents to achieve my goals of being a great father and husband and a dedicated christ follower.

Now if so much of my current struggle is my business verses my current job verses potential future jobs this is completely external to my family or christian life and yet is so personally all-consuming.

If my real identity and life purpose is not at all or not directly related to my current personal turmoil then I am in fact in crisis. Based on the fact my focus is completely redirected away from what it is to 'me'.

A person in crisis, not being true to himself is actually not going to achieve full potential in any area. For the conflict is within and any battle external to the root issue is just a cosmetic attempt to coverup or distract.

The answer then is not to list the top ten issues or outstanding tasks but it is to create a new list made by 'me' in my true self.

A list not of things un-done but of things yet to be done.

It is with this positive drive that one's true potential can be tapped and is the required catalyst to take 'me' from crisis to completion.

It almost seems like it may have more general applicability...

Take a situation that seems negative, impossible, has issues or problems. Create true identity and vision. Plan action based on the future potential and vision not bound by the conflict of the past.

Ah those sweet moments of serendipity....

A Moment Captured

2006-05-29T03:59:19+02:00

Joe and I were chatting at lunch, I was sharing my uncertainty to my new responsibilities at work our conversation and my thinking started to turn the corner and I remember saying "I feel I have the tools now, to lead even a challenging group through a tough situation. To do so now I just need to use them (the tools - the skills I have practiced and learnt about)."

As Joe responded I remember him starting to say (paraphrasing) that I do have what I need and got mid sentence when I almost feel off my chair.

He said, "I feel you are like a 6 cylinder engine only operating on 2 cylinders". Although his message was longer it was this comment that spoke straight to me from God to say the work He told me about, the prophecy I received is over 10 years ago is linked to this moment in time. It was a reminder that this is his plan for me. I am in his plan for me and gave me the confidence only such a life marker can give. Nothing speaks louder that God popping out to say Fear Not.

So I to aid in my explanation I have attached the audio from the prophecy I refer to. It was November of 1995 I was graduating from my Christian High School. For the graduating class all students are offered words of prophecy. This is the first of 4 which I will attach.

I call this prophecy Crusin In 1st
nov_1995_coc_1_crusin_in_1st.mp3

For completeness and posterity I have attached all prophecies I have recorded on tape:

I call this prophecy I Know You
nov_1995_coc_2_i_know_you.mp3

I call this prophecy Apostolic Anointing
nov_1995_coc_3_apostolic.mp3

I call this prophecy Anointed For Business
nov_1995_coc_3_board_room.mp3

The following two prophecies were in November of 2005:

I call this prophecy In Honor of the Least
nov_2005_crc_history.mp3

I call this prophecy My Apostolic Prophetic Marriage Team
nov_2005_crc_apostolic_prophectic_partners.mp3

Me of Tomorrow

2006-02-23T06:05:00+01:00

When I was 17 I can remember a friend and I discussing a decision making method based on the consideration of what the "25 year old Andrew" would appreciate most. To do this simply invent another character in your mind and sit down to have a little discussion over whatever it is you are about to do.

Quite often I can remember deciding not to 'cross that line' because I didn't want to let the 25 year old Andrew down. For me this was a powerful understanding ~ some whacky form of future self respect.

I was considering today that this is something I no longer do. I just celebrated my 28th birthday, I think I am still in denail and consider myself 22 and as such never felt the need to update my future self from 25 year old Andrew.

Then I started to think what would it look like if I considered my wife of 2007. What could I do to make her proud of the 28 year old Andrew. What would it look like to consider the Purcell family of 2010. To spend just a little time this day to do something the Purcell's of 2010 would look back on and say "Thanks Dad".

What about my Church or my community, if I start to consider (to have vision for) the future and do one action today to make that one step closer to a reality. This broader scale gets harder to write about....

So I'll start with Andrew:
Today I could go for a run.
Already the Andrew of tomorrow would appreciate that and feel healthy and energized.
Today I could do ALL my outstanding chores and procrastinated tasks.
Imagine how thankful the Andrew of tomorrow would be.

Then today I could do some dishes or help with some laundry, hmm now I know this investment repeated would reap life happiness beyond my imagination - I can not think of a greater blessing than a happy family that this would help bring.

I have started to realise that selfishness so often is acts which care only for you NOW. Acts in consideration of the future you are rarely as selfish.

So today I chose to consider the me of tomorrow, my family of tomorrow, my community of tomorrow… let the impact be potent and infinite.

Serendipity

2006-02-08T13:15:00+01:00

Serendipity is finding something unexpected and useful while searching for something else entirely.

Actually this is the title of the blog that never was. I think it would have been an amazing blog. It is sad to have to say Good bye and move on. However this shall be the words of reminder to seize the day; for had I seized the day I would have captured what would have been quite a meaningful thought.

Today however is a day of examination. A day for my performance review at work. Tough day for one who is driven by his perceptions of how others value him. Even though everything says I have done good and faithful work the underlying expectation is that I will be blind sided by some failure which leaves me feeling like a boy outside the principals office waiting for his punishment.

This helps to highlight my need for others approval, even perhaps with more emotional impact than a fear of letting God down. My spirit health and self analysis is perhaps something I have been able to control or limit. If it gets in the way of 'the more important things in life'.

I think balance would be a keen understanding of my value in the world based on God's view, love and approval rather than people's view, love and approval. However the other feeling I have is my God conscience is out of whack. The priority of my God time and spiritual health needs to be elevated above all else.

So for the next while let that be my journey be - one of self discover of 'me' and 'me and God'. Let it be the brainstorming session which brings change to the priorities of my day, each and every day.

I think my Serendipity post will come - but I am not sure I have found the something unexpected yet. Perhaps for now it shall remain an incentive as I walk this journey.

To Journal or Not To Journal

2006-01-05T10:00:00+01:00

Ok ok. to be honest I have already written this first sentence 4 times. Each time deleting it as it just wasn't quite perfect. So to ensure I at least get through one post on this weblog, I will continue and resist the temptation to start all over with some other half baked attempt to impress you with my wit and style and humor and good looks....

I did think of journaling on why journaling wasn't for me but I guess it is a fairly rediculus use of my time so I'll just skip ahead and pretend I have been doing it for years and this is just another blog listing thoughts of the days just pasted.

Recently I have had an exciting sense, one I have felt before and recognize, a new sense of calling. I have long believed that God has a very special blessing on my life. A feeling of knowing there is a plan and always knowing the next step a little earlier in my spirit than I realize in my physical reality. It is a feeling that gives great reassurance. As well as this, I feel God show up each and every time to take me and my family to greater and greater places. I have always been so blessed in business, work environments in most life situations I feel competent in a way I don't feel comes from me as much as God. Knowing these things along with one key truth - I aint seen nothing yet. The journey God has for me, the job, the goal, the mission is so much greater than I have ever considered, the potential is infinite.

Joe (Dam Youth Drop In) asked a pointed question one night "Why Are You Here?" I think it was my first night meeting Joe as volunteer. One part of me wanted to say fine and just walk off, thinking he didn't want me there. The other part of me had only one answer "This is where God wants me right now". "Ask me again in 5 years and I can tell you why I was there", was my thinking.

My journey with God has been like this a lot. I quite often don't know the bigger picture, nor need a reason, just need to be sure that this next step, this next day is in obedience to my best ability to what God wants from me. It has been some time of small steps and little booming direction, but I am feeling the subtle growth of the still small voice and it is truly exciting.